- to connect with the sacred in nature
- to love my children
- to learn and grow and help others to learn and grow
- to take time to slow, savour and appreciate this one life
- to write and paint and connect with others through these mediums
- to live a rich deep creative life and inspire others to the same
- to listen to birdsong, smell flowers, taste fresh tomatoes from the vine and linger in fields, forests and on seashores
- to focus less on the abstract and get up close and personal to the actual, the real, the individual, the unique
- to reconnect with growing things, with wildflowers and our wild selves
- to get in touch with the essence of life, our intuition, the heart that beats in nature in rhythm with our own
- to bring together those who wish to live a more authentic life
- to live the life of the wild wolf woman inside and open my heart to others to join me
- to encourage healing with words, pictures, word pictures, senses, inspiration
- to live every moment as precious and sacred and bring the disparate parts of life together
- to live with integrity and balance.
- to make things, to use my hands building, crafting, growing, tending, nurturing, drawing, making, painting, writing, knitting, sewing, mending
- to cultivate an attitude of thankfulness, of grace and gentle caring
- to see the lightness in the heavy and the heavy in the light
- to take time every day to create and notice the little things
- to work with nature to heal myself and others with nourishing whole foods, water and herbs
- to connect with others in meaningful conversations
- to let go of hurtful pasts and seek new beginnings and new relationships
- to embrace the strong feminine and allow her to be seen in the world
… some lofty aspirations there, right? 😉
I think perhaps something that has been causing me problems is a cognitive dissonance between the person who wrote the above list – who comes from a more intuitional way of living – and a more rational me who wants to be seen as intelligent and worldly and fit in with the normal view of life… I don’t think this last me is really me at all, but rather the norms of society projected onto me. Maybe I could work towards letting go of that. When I think about and read through the list above, it feels good, it feels like me, it feels right.
In my own small world this fits and if I didn’t have to interact with others I would have no difficulty being this person. But I do have to interact with others and I am wary of expressing this part of myself. I sometimes feel like I am bleeding in front of people when I do this. It hurts and is uncomfortable. I feel their judgement. I feel embarrassed for expressing this more female way of being. This way of being is not thought highly of in our culture. A whole bunch of ‘shoulds’ assail me… I should be more clear, more certain, I should back up my words with facts and figures and references, I should be sensible and think more not feel more, but that is not how I want to live.
Last week I got caught up in the whole election extravaganza in this country. I feel strongly about certain policies, I voted, I followed the analysis… I was devastated with the result. And angry and frustrated and a whole lot of other things. All of this is a strong contrast to the person I want to be. The person who wrote the above list.
It made me think about how we make a difference, and I think that maybe politics is the reaction to things people do and how they live, not the cause. Real difference is made, I think, at a much smaller level. At the level of people, and actions, interactions, connections and words… real change happens in small moments every day in the way we speak, listen, take action, learn, grow, appreciate and care.
“Few will have the greatness to bend history itself, but each of us can work to change a small portion of events. It is from numberless diverse acts of courage and belief that human history is shaped. Each time a man stands up for an ideal, or acts to improve the lot of others, or strikes out against injustice, he sends forth a tiny ripple of hope, and crossing each other from a million different centers of energy and daring those ripples build a current which can sweep down the mightiest walls of oppression and resistance.”
~ Robert F. Kennedy